Friday, April 27, 2012

Oh Hai!

Still tumbling like crazy guys. Got 122 followers (nothing by tumblr standards, but still exciting for me) so better jump on the bandwagon! I also have a photography tumblr so go check them out.

So what's happened in my life since my last post?

I turned 20
Summer came
I went to Coffs Harbour
It became 2012
I lost weight (don't know how much, avoiding weighing myself since the chocolate extravaganza of Easter. Enough for people to notice)
I went to Nimbin
My Dad moved to Vietnam. No really
I worked A LOT
I got reading glasses. Dream come true!
I got asked to become a casual photographer at work. It's been like 3 months and still nothing has come of that
I made plans to move out with J and our friend Tony towards the end of the year
I got my first credit card
I started school (studying fashion business at The Fashion Institute, love it!)
Autumn began
I worked at Sexpo and had fun taking happy snaps of visitors and pole-dancers alike
My hair grew! It's now about nipple-length. Saucy
I went alcohol-free for 6 weeks and discovered that it doesn't affect my fun levels at all
I hit 4 years with J and celebrated by ending my dry-month-plus with copious wine tasting in the Hunter Valley
I sold things on eBay for the first time
I re-discovered eyeshadow
I got J an Aldi expressi coffee maker for his birthday. Best decision ever? I think so
I met Louise van de Vorst, Rachel Rutt and Ollie Henderson
I went to/worked at my first fashion show
I had the worst migraine ever
I got offered an internship at Harper's Bazaar (eeeeeee!)
I worked more
I paid off my school fees
My bank balance went into negative of about $600
I made progress in my life.

So things are good. Tonight there's the first Ramshackle gig in aaaaaages and the last for a while because Tony is heading to Europe in less than 3 weeks. I'm excited to take some photos!

My dear friend Halcy has hopped over to Milan to further her modelling career. She's doing really well and just got flown over to Paris to do a job for L'Oreal! I'm super jealous that she's over there and I miss her but I'm also super proud of her. A whole heap of my friends are travelling this year and I wish so much that I could be too but there's no way unless I put off moving out for longer and I really don't want to do that.

Another friend anounced her pregnancy a couple of weeks ago and we're all excited! It's also kind of scary to think that in less than 6 months, our group will have a second generation. It makes me feel old. I can't imagine how scary it must be for them to know they'll be parents soon!

James is still living here at my mum's house. Steph is also here all the time since dad moved. It's an interesting house hold set up haha. But in about 5 months me and J should be out of their hair and I can't wait! I hope it's as fun as I'm imagining...

That's basically the quick update of what's happening in my life.


Tuesday, November 01, 2011

Breaking the Apathy Cycle

I feel pretty bad for not blogging. but like, I have nothing big to blog about. I don't do anything big. But then I remember that i've blogged about stuff other than my own life before so why is now different? I'm just really lazy, and still feeling reasonably apathetic about things but also excited for things. My birthday is coming up which is great. And I have money which is REALLY great. My job is slowly sucking my will to live but I get a bit of a break soon for Christmas and new years and then again at the end of January with Australia day and my Nimbin trip. I've decided that Februry 1, things are going to change. Both my summer roadtrips will be done, my Christmas Euro-trip will be just 9 months away, and I should have a few grand in the bank.

I have decided that I AM going to study next year. I can't really afford it but I can manage. I mean, the course I can pat for without to much trouble, it's just I can't imagine affording the course and then being able to afford Europe. But really, I can just get a new job. Or a second job. Or try and get more hours at this one (even though I mostly hate it I don't really want to leave? Go figure). Or get a small personal loan. Or borrow off my family. Or win the lotto (I seriously plan a great life around doing this but never buy a ticket because not winning would be so dissapointing when I've already got an imaginary... say.... 3 million and I've spent it on a fabulous waterfront place in Hunters Hill or somewhere equally amazing, furnished the place to perfection, my dream career (money can get pretty much everything), and any holidays I feel like at the drop of a hat).

There are so many things I can do! I mean let's face it, you don't actually need to have the money for something then and there to be "able to afford it". All I need is like $10,000 which when you think about it, really isn't that much. And it makes NO sense for me to put off studying for a year, keep doing what I'm doing which is getting me nowhere, creating this terrible apathy cycle in me and making me question if I'm EVER going to get "somewhere" with my life, just to make sure I can afford to go on this trip. I mean what would I do then? Have extra money for my trip, manage to spend all of it anyway and come back and find I'm back to square one- wanting to study but having no money for it. I have the money now (well like half of it, but I should have at least most of it by Feb and you can pay it off over 3 months). I want to do it now. And I should just do it.

I still would very much love to just win a chunk of money so I didn't have to worry so much about things. Like if I won $10,000 right now that would be my course and my trip paid for, and then any extra money I make in the next YEAR could go to things like a laptop, camera stuff, some other short courses for photography stuff, clothes etc. I even bought two scratchies today. Spent $9 and got back $7- but considering only 1/5 scratchies is a winner, I have some pretty good luck there. And really if I won $10,000 I'd be a bit dissapointed that I wouldn't be able to splurge on something useless right now because I need that money. And I'd feel guilty for keeping it all for myself. And like I didn't really deserve it.

So basically, I had a bit of an epiphany the other day and gave myself a mental kick up the arse.

You know what? You're fucking doing this. Stop making stupid excuses and just do it. There's no point saying 'Oh I'd love to do this course,'. Just fucking do it. Europe will still be there. And if you need more money, you'll fucking find a way. You only work 20 hours a week. There are a LOT more hours you could fill up. It is not hard. At all.
So I'm pretty excited for the next few months. I just hope I like the course because if it's a joke I'm screeeeeewed haha.

-m xx

p.s. still tumbling quite enthusiastically. I make up for not posting here with all the mini-posts I do on tumblr. And I have 27 followers now- I mean blogger never got me that. AND my friends actually use it, which is cool. J even got one! TUMMMBBBLLLLRRRR

Monday, September 19, 2011

My last post was almost two weeks ago. I'm sorry, But like, nothing exciting enough to do a real post about has happened. I'm working. And hanging with friends. And chilling on the couch with boyfriend. Oh and I joined a gym! That's new.

Summer is around the corner and I'm super excited. I've got not one but TWO roadtrips planned with friends- one to Coffs Harbour over New Years, we're staying in aa 4 bedroom apartment on the beach which should be awesome, and one to Nimbin at the end of January, where we will be staying in cute little canvas perma-tents and this awesome hostel that has a pool and everything. It should be great.

I do wish I had been blogging more. But I'm feeling generally apathetic about most things lately. I'm just bored I guess. I basically hate my job- it's the same shit every day and I spend all week waiting for my next day off/the weekend and then hey guess what the weekend comes and goes and it's Monday again. It's something I've always done- spent all my time waiting and not actually appreciating the present. I'm trying to break out of it by enjoying the little things that are good about every day. For instance today James cooked bolognese and it was awesome. And I had a healthy lunch and felt good about myself. And I went bare legged today and got to work on my tan. And the weather is nice. And my hair is getting long. And I found out that having a coffee a day increases your metabolism by 10%. See? there's lots to enjoy during the week.

Ramshackle had their first gig with their new drummer Matt on Saturday night. The lighting was shit unfortunately but I got some snaps and once I sort them there may even be a few up here! That's basically everything I have to report. I had a pre-cognitive dream about a conversation with a work client which is about as exciting as my life gets.

OK so I seem a bit whiney today and I just need to say that my life is actually pretty awesome. most of the time. It's just the three or four days of work that kind of suck. Like I don't like my job but there's no point quitting and getting a new one that doesnt have any direction to it. I just need to work out what my next big step is. I want to go to FBI and study fashion business but it's like $4,000 and I'm like scared of asking my parents if they will pay for it. And I can't afford it. Especially since I'm going to Europe and hopefully America like the end of next year. I need direction in my life to drive me.

But apart from that I have 3-4 days off a week. I'm now going to the gym which actually makes me feel really good and hopefully soon look really good too! I spend a lot of time with my school friends. I get to sleep next to my boyfriend every night and we don't fight. I make enough to save and live comfortably. I work in one of the coolest parts of Sydney. I hang out with friends every weekend. I have a fair amount of freedom. I got a spontaneous tattoo the other day. It's getting hot. I'm going to have a fabulous summer. I give money to charity. I win money on scratchies. I can enjoy a drink or two of an evening.

I recently learnt that happiness is 50% pre-determined. The other 50% is only 10% life circumstances and 40% daily activities. So of the happiness we can control, almost all of it is simply what we do each day. It doesn't matter if you have money, a good job, a relationship, skinny legs so long as you make sure you do something you enjoy every day. Since then I've been actually doing things on my days off and I no longer have that feeling of wasting a day and essentially my life.

Ok so this is a big ramble with no real theme to it. But that's ok.

And now because someone will probably read this and think I'm depressed, which I'm not (just apathetic.) here's a smiley face:


-m xx

Peace out!

Tuesday, September 06, 2011


Oh Bloggr I've been neglecting you!

Oh, sorry, it's Blogger isn't it? Is that it? It's been so long!

You see, I made a new friend. Their name is Tumblr and we've been hanging out a LOT. Oh the fun we have, blogging and reblogging. We even have 7 followers. I know it's soon but I think this could be the one!

Basically as well continually scrolling up on my iPhone to refresh my Tumblr dashboard I've been working, enjoing the amazing warm weather (hit 27 today. Summer!), booking an incredible summer road trip to Nimbin with 11 of my nearest and dearest (143 days dammit fuck. FUCK) winning on scratchies, getting the shock of my life at the ATM when my tax came through and my balance was $1300 more than I was expecting, watching the Living End be awesome whilst putting up with middle-aged mosh douchebags, getting my 90s on at Teen Spirit and looking up gym memberships.

That pretty much sums up the last 4 days. I'm off to work for the next two days then the weekend begins. I'm seriously loving the warm weather, every sunny day feels like I'm on summer holidays. I can't wait till Summer, it really is a fabulous time of year. Despite the crazy heat and humidity that we're charmed with downunder. Seriously, if Summer could just be 27 with a nice, cool-ish breeze every day my life would be awesome. Friday I am planning to actually head down to my local Fernwood and fork out a shit load of money for a 3 month membership. I'll soon be foxy for sure.

Yeah that's it. I'm sure I'll be back regularly soon.

But while you wait, feel free to tumble with me.

-m xx

Wednesday, August 24, 2011

I actually had a really productive day today! It's my day off from work and normally I spend the day watching one of my shows and wishing I was doing something that actually made me feel like I hadn't wasted a day. And though I did watch some Gossip Girl today it was only two episodes! And I also cleaned the bathroom. And my fish tank. And showered. And LEFT THE HOUSE for a catch up with Kasey.

But most impressively I finally did my final assignment. Finally final.

Which means I am just days away from getting my certificate. And then I can start sorting out the next course I want to do. I'm planning on going to The Fashion Business Institute in Glebe to do a certificate 4 in Fashion Business. I think I'll really enjoy the classes and you choose your own timetable as you go- basically they list all the available days/times for classes and you just call up to book the one that works for you.

In other news I should be lodging my tax return in the next couple of days so I'm super excited for getting that. I think I'll organise for it to be direct debited into my savings account so I can't spend it all. That way I'll have a big chunk to start off my savings which should help encourage me to actually put money in every pay. I have a lot to save up for. I really need my own lap top and my tax eturn should acutally be enough for it but I really want to at least double that amount before I get one so I still have a fair chunk left. I'm a bit strange about money like that. I like to just accumulate it. And for it to keep increasing. I love buying things but I hate having less money afterwards. But money is only covetable because you can buy things with it- it's not worht having if it just sits there.

Aside from a computer I have my next trip to save up for. Now that I've finally paid off my last one I can get a bit excited about it, even if it is about 16months away. I'm currently starting to organise a small Summer road trip with a few friends since I missed out on the snow trip this year. The current plan is to head North for around a week, spending half in Nimbin and half in Byron Bay. It should be fabulous. It'll be a great chilled trip- almost like a Schoolies 2.0. Nimbin is a really great place and I haven't spent much time in Byron but who doesn't love a lazy beach town? It's just in the opening planning stages and it's a trip I wanted to do last Summer but it didn't happen so I'm hoping we can get it together this time.

I can't wait to get paid tomorrow- I can finally shop!

-m xx

p.s. just pressed "send" on my final assignment. So exciting!

Saturday, August 20, 2011

Vid of the Week: "HE WON'T TRUST YOU NOW!"

Yes, I know, it's been a while.
But I've been super busy with work the last couple of weeks and when i do have time off there's nothing to blog about because I've just been working, see? But next thursday I'll be rich so it's all worth it.

Oh, didn't i tell you? That's right, I paid off my Europe debts. I am now a free woman. No longer will all my excess money go straight into my sister's account. I can buy shit now. On a regular basis! And save money! Woah!

Ok anyway so it IS a Sunday which means it's time for a video. Now I had a temporary hiatus from my vids of the week because my computer was being a dick and wouldnt even load youtube videos. And since I can't watch them, I can't decide if I like them, can I? Anyway, problem seems to be fixed for now.

This video is hilarious.


I'll be back on Wednesday, I promise. Even if I just blog about not having something to blog about.

-m xx

Tuesday, August 02, 2011


So I'm sitting here at home, on my day off, having just finished Ugly Betty (yes. All four seasons. Great show. Makes me so happy when they start dressing Willhelmina in colour in season 3 and 4.) and thinking i should do something semi constructive like work on my final assignment. Nope can't do that because I feel like I'm being stabbed in the uterus and I can hardly take a photo of a potato being peeled when I'm the only one home, can I? The I think, maybe I should post on my blog? "I have nothing to post about my blah blah apathy blah."

Then, miracle of miracles, I remember this wee gem that I started last week and I figure I may as well continue it. Since my cookie post was so popular (2 comments, hells yes) I figure it's a good idea to share some more of my hilarious culinary wisdom with my instructions on how to make a top notch pizza. Because you may have notice I make pizza A LOT. I'm quite the expert, see?

1. First you need to gather your ingredients. You will need a standard oven, a ready made pizza base (think you're top shit and can roll out you're own dough? As with cookies, this is no place for you!) pizza sauce, grated cheese and your preferred toppings. I personally love prosciutto, sliced tomato and feta, but it's up to you. This is YOUR pizza. But if you put capsicum or olives on that shit you're not my friend.

2. Next you need to put a saucey base on your base. I love garlic, so I use abotu a teaspoon of that and a shit load of pre-bottled pizza sauce. Put them both on, then spread them- garlic doesnt spread so well on it's on. Be liberal. A saucey pizza is a good pizza in my books. (Just remember if it's really saucey it will also be really hot. I have been known to burn the roof of my mouth.

3. next comes the cheese. I apply cheese underneath and on top of my toppings, so don't despair if you think the below shot looks lacking of cheesey goodness. Besides, too much cheese leads to obesity and heart attacks. I like to save my calloric intake for the feta.

4. Apply your chosen toppings. I use a whole roma tomato, sliced and then halved, 3 or 4 slices or prosciutto/serrano and a generous helping of feta. I also add pepper because it's nummy.

5. When your toppings are in place, cover them with a sprinkling of cheese. You may notice a distinct lack of feta in these photos. My mother had used it all the the previous nights salad. I wasn't too impressed. But you'll just have to imagine it's there.

6. When your pizza is ready for the melty-crispification process, put it in the oven at 180 for 10 minutes or so. Normally, after 10 minutes, it will require a little more time but always check the base to see how crunchy it is first- we all have crunch preferances.

7. Take your pizza out and cut it. Most people cut it into 8 slices. But really. You KNOW you're gonna eat the whole thing. It may as well be in larger pieces so you can say you only ate 4 slices of pizza. No one needs to know you ate 4 quarters. And yes. That is REAL steam rising off that pizza- not the ol' wet tampon in a microwave trick that Dominoes use.

8. Enjoy your pizza.
featuring my new hair style.

-m xx