F.O.D.

I went to bed mad last night. Never a nice option.
Most every night I listen to music as I fall asleep. Last night was no exception. Normally, I pick something quiet, such as my sleep playlist, Muse or Regina Spektor. Last night I picked Green Day's 1994 breakthrough album, Dookie. It's one of my go-to albums when I'm angry. Just the right amount of adolescent angst without creeping into the realms of emo.
Anyway, one particular song really caught my attention last night, so I figured it was time for a lyrics post.

F.O.D.- Green Day

Something's on my mind
It's been for quite some time
This time I'm on to you
So where's the other face?
The face I heard before
Your head trip's boring me

Let's nuke the bridge we torched
2,000 times before
This time we'll blast it all to hell
I've had this burning in my guts now
for so long
My belly's aching now to say

Stuck down in a rut of dislogic and smut
A side of you well hid
When it's all said and done
it's real and it's been fun
But was it all real fun?

Let's nuke the bridge we torched
2,000 times before
This time we'll blast it all to hell
I've felt this burning in my guts now
for so long
My belly's aching now to say

to say...

You're just...
a fuck.
I can't explain it 'cause I think you suck.
I'm tak-
-ing pride
in telling you to Fuck Off and Die.

I've had this burning in my guts now
for so long
My belly's aching now to say
I'm taking pleasure in the doubts
I've passed to you
So listen up as you bite thisssss...

You're just...
a fuck.
I can't explain it 'cause I think you suck.
I'm tak-
-ing pride,
in telling you to Fuck Off and Die.

Good Night.


Perfect for the kind of anger where you can't even find words for it. Some people like to listen to calm music when they're angry, to make them feel relaxed. I prefer to listen to music that echoes how I'm feeling. It's satisfying to know that someone else has felt something similar. It really helps bring the emoitons forward so you can release them, whereas calming music just pushes them back and you only end up feeling them in a more intesified way later. Well, for me anyway.

I have some photos that are meant to be coming. I shot a gig for Marlow on the weekend, but I'm too scared to upload my photos because I've just gotten a security warning about the 300 trojans on my C and D drives. I'm too scared to remove them in case they remove the whole files, not just the trojany bit, and if that happens, I'll get blamed when Dad gets home. So I'll let him do it.

All for now
-m xx

HSC results

Got them today
Actually got a little teary from the relief of it all!
Thank god for teacher's discretion and their ability to bump up assessment marks!
here:

Student Number: 20443898

Units. Courses Entered. Examination Mark. Assessment Mark. HSC Mark. Band.

2 . Chemistry . 73/100 . 70/100 . 72 . 4
2 . EarthEnviro. Sc. 82/100 . 81/100 . 82 . 5
2 . English (Adv) . 79/100 . 81/100 . 80 . 5
1 . English Ext 1 . 30/50 . 40/50 . 35 . E3
2 . Visual Arts . 78/100 . 79/100 . 79 . 4
2 . German Cont . 78/100 . 75/100 . 77 . 4
1 . German Ext . 34/50 . 35/50 . 35 .E3

ELIGIBLE FOR HIGHER SCHOOL CERTIFICATE

Not too shabby at all! all band 4s and 5s, all final marks over 70%
Hallelujah! (can I get an Amen?)

Oh and here's a photo to leave you with, i believe it makes summarising the Green Day concert completely unnecessary:



you can see J in the crowd, and my arm nextto him :)
Bye!

How have I never seen this before?

Seriously. Good Stuff.




And only fitting considering in two days I will be at the Green Day concert. noone appreciates my excitement... except of course J, who perfectly understands my unconditional love for this band.

I also want to say that schoolies was pretty tops. Except the boy know only as "the nappy haired butt pincher" who isn't very good at obeying red stickers (I'd hate to see him drive, in that case)

New, post-schoolies loves:

*Prancing around in my cropped bardot top and bikini bottoms
*The drinking game; "What the fuck"- it's like 4 kings, but more extreme and it doesn't involve clothes swapping.
*The boys of floor 13 PDT
*PDT in general (paradise towers apartments- i.e. the oldest apartment building in surfers paradise)
*Tom the security guard
*Lip piercings (apparently, since i got one)
*That 3Oh!3 song with Katy Perry
*Elevates. Seriously, 300mL, 1.9 standard drinks with energy. $10 for a 4 pack.
*The Ultimate Schoolies '09 drink! 2 parts electric pink cruiser, 1 part double black, plus a dash of the secret ingredient.
*Maccas cheeeseburgers
*My free Cacharel "Scarlet" EDT,courtesy of Grazia for getting letter of the week in issue 64 (finally got my prize). It's delicious. Not something I would buy but it's really grown on me.


And another vid to leave you with, Green Day performing "She" live. Just pay attention to Billie's ramble before he starts singing. Outrageous.



Bye!

Undesirable

So, last night, on ABC's Hungry Beast, there was a skit about how anyone can find out anything about you through google. And, as I obviously have a google account, I decided to google myself.

Nothing. Mostly, I got scary Spice, because we have the same name. I did however manage to find a tiny photo off my cousin's facebook of him and my sister- but nothing on me. I'm not sure whether i should be feeling relieved or insulted right now. Anyway, my shoe obsession has not died, oh no. So here, have some beauties I've been spying:

Left to right: Ariel, Footloose and Pesce, all Zu!

Left to right: Elfin, Harper and Leoni all Betts

I'm sorry it's tiny, but the Wittner website don't have savable photo files, so I had to go hunting... Not sure if this heel is high enough, it's only 9cm :p

And what are shoes without bags?

Ilka from Zu! and Graffiti from Betts (also look great in this nice royal blue and black pattern)

Both the cream Elfin pumps and the silver Wittner shoes are formal possibilities. Tough decision... I have a Betts voucher, so the Elfins would only be like $95. However, it's really hard to find a cream nude clutch that I LIKE (which is where the Ilka is a possibility, but might be a bit complicated with my multi coloured dress) and of course, pumps to a formal? In summer? I'm all about strappy shoes at the moment, and everyone else seems to be wearing black or nude pumps so the Wittner shoes would be more interesting, and I did see this great bejeweled silver clutch (in Gladesville pharmacy, of all places) that would look great. However the Wittner shoes are $170. But then again, the Zu! clutch is $70 more than the other so it makes up for it. But with my Betts voucher, I pretty much am obliged to buy Betts shoes by the 15th, which happens to be the day before the formal...

Or maybe I could get the Wittners and the clutch to match, and then from Betts get the Harpers, which i could wear on my birthday. And, since I like to buy myself birthday presents, guilt will be gone! It does however, total to about $350 in bags and shoes... a bit ridiculous? When i could just spend $200? Hmm... tough decisions. A trip to Parramatta is necessary for this one, methinks.

Oh and guess what? I've got an interview Monday, with Scene to Believe for like 3 weeks of Santa photography. Embarrassing, but all the same: any experience is good experience. So, hoping that goes well... And while I'm at Macquarie, I may as well check out Wittner (and perhaps find my mother a birthday present?).

Anyway, should have the photos from Granny Smith uploaded tomorrow, so chances are you'll be seeing a couple.

Man, I forgot how good old old Green Day is...

Princess in a schoolgirl's dream,

may I please speak to you?

I'm having troubles with control

and it's all because of you.

Today I kept on falling down,

I thought it was the street.

So I looked down at my shoes

they were on the wrong feet

Peace out- Mell xox