F.O.D.

I went to bed mad last night. Never a nice option.
Most every night I listen to music as I fall asleep. Last night was no exception. Normally, I pick something quiet, such as my sleep playlist, Muse or Regina Spektor. Last night I picked Green Day's 1994 breakthrough album, Dookie. It's one of my go-to albums when I'm angry. Just the right amount of adolescent angst without creeping into the realms of emo.
Anyway, one particular song really caught my attention last night, so I figured it was time for a lyrics post.

F.O.D.- Green Day

Something's on my mind
It's been for quite some time
This time I'm on to you
So where's the other face?
The face I heard before
Your head trip's boring me

Let's nuke the bridge we torched
2,000 times before
This time we'll blast it all to hell
I've had this burning in my guts now
for so long
My belly's aching now to say

Stuck down in a rut of dislogic and smut
A side of you well hid
When it's all said and done
it's real and it's been fun
But was it all real fun?

Let's nuke the bridge we torched
2,000 times before
This time we'll blast it all to hell
I've felt this burning in my guts now
for so long
My belly's aching now to say

to say...

You're just...
a fuck.
I can't explain it 'cause I think you suck.
I'm tak-
-ing pride
in telling you to Fuck Off and Die.

I've had this burning in my guts now
for so long
My belly's aching now to say
I'm taking pleasure in the doubts
I've passed to you
So listen up as you bite thisssss...

You're just...
a fuck.
I can't explain it 'cause I think you suck.
I'm tak-
-ing pride,
in telling you to Fuck Off and Die.

Good Night.


Perfect for the kind of anger where you can't even find words for it. Some people like to listen to calm music when they're angry, to make them feel relaxed. I prefer to listen to music that echoes how I'm feeling. It's satisfying to know that someone else has felt something similar. It really helps bring the emoitons forward so you can release them, whereas calming music just pushes them back and you only end up feeling them in a more intesified way later. Well, for me anyway.

I have some photos that are meant to be coming. I shot a gig for Marlow on the weekend, but I'm too scared to upload my photos because I've just gotten a security warning about the 300 trojans on my C and D drives. I'm too scared to remove them in case they remove the whole files, not just the trojany bit, and if that happens, I'll get blamed when Dad gets home. So I'll let him do it.

All for now
-m xx